Reality is Rough

I've been extremely busy lately with awesome fellowship (yay!) but mostly due to goodbye parties (boo.) and while I'm so thankful for all the amazing people I've gotten to catch up with...there's a super bittersweet twist to it all. During this period of struggle, being out and busy is one of the best things for me because it helps me not to dwell on the painful situation I cannot change, but I also have to tell the truth about my new reality.

Being open and honest with people is such a sigh of relief because then the truth is FINALLY out there, but telling them...that's the hard part. Just saying the two little words that sum up my life right now bring on the waterworks and ugh. It's super lame. I've done nothing wrong and have no reason to feel guilty or anything but the tears come because I'm hurt. So at all these functions when people ask about how I'm doing and where's so and so...it's not like I can just bust out with my whole life drama and bawl. I end up telling a half truth. Leaving out the super painful part.

It's not that I'm trying to hide what's going on, I'm just trying to be wise about when and where I divulge my new reality. Like breaking down in the middle of random goodbye parties in front of half of whom I don't even know...yeah...not the place. Slowly but surely I'm taking people aside, meeting up one on one, and I'm letting people know the truth. I'm not about to put my life on blast on here either, but, as I said in my last post, prayer would be MUCH appreciated. If anyone does have any questions or anything, feel free to email me or call. I really do hope to tell everyone what's going on, I am simply trying to be wise about it all. Thanks for all the support and love :)